homesick

**wareagle69** · 02-03-2010, 10:11 PM

evr get that feeling when you been out for a spell, just thinkin to much around the fire? its a feeling i haven't been able to shake the last couple of days, especially when out in the barn with my horses, missing home so much, arizona that is for those who don't know me, had a few emails and face book thingies this week from guys i used to rodeo with, man i miss the mountains and deserts and canyons more than i have ever missed a human being, just an ache deep in my chest, even certain songs hurt too much to listen to, and the dreams, oh man the dreams, standing on the edge of a cliff sunset a quiet canyon, sigh, but i also know that if i am back home i have hurt the one that i love here, but somedays i wish she would set me free, free to go home to live in the mountains or deserts or where ever, hit the rodeos again and be free again.

just babble but i have to talk to someone, to get it all out, the tears fall when i think of my beloved arizona my wander lust sometimes sleeps, sometimes hits me with a crowbar,ha reminds me to bad two sox isn't around he could tell ya about me and a crowbar, ah good times.

**Winnie** · 02-04-2010, 06:22 AM

Funny, I seem to be the exact opposite. I wasn't in the least bothered when I left the place of my birth and I constantly dream of another place. I've never felt at home wherever I've lived and the wanderlust in me grows until I have to find somewhere else. I dream of finding "home" but as yet, I'm still waiting for that feeling. Maybe it's something to do with always having been in rented accommodation. Maybe because I have no real family(apart from Winnie jnr) to make anyplace feel like home. Whatever it is I can see another move on the horizon before long. You see I'm still searching.

**Rick** · 02-04-2010, 10:09 AM

It's difficult, I guess, to have a heart full of wanderlust. I'm pretty content where ever I am.

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." ~Frederick Keonig

Take a moment and write down the things you do have. Make a list. When you're done, make a list of things you don't have. I'll bet the first list is a very, very long one and the second very short.

**BENESSE** · 02-04-2010, 10:43 AM

Like Winnie, I don't have a sense of "home" but feel at home in many different places. For a while anyway.
Not sure if I could ever find that ideal place that would fulfill my every need--a large part of it being having family and close friends nearby.
Everyone is scattered all over the world and our lives are very different from when we were growing up. Even the places of my youth are practically unrecognizable.
"You can never go home again" is definitely true in my case.

**Ole WV Coot** · 02-04-2010, 11:00 AM

I left home at 18, missed it at times but I sure couldn't go home so I made the best of it. I can make it by myself or with others anywhere if I ain't bored. Now working out of town and spending 3mo in a cheap motel in a town that rolled up the sidewalks at 5pm was rough. I was truly thankful for alcoholic beverages.

**Winnie** · 02-04-2010, 11:17 AM

That's the confusing thing Rick, on the whole I'm a pretty happy person(apart from the bouts of depression, but I can handle that), I'm not exactly searching for anything I'd just like to feel "settled" if that make sense. I'm not unhappy with where I live, but it just feels like bricks and mortar not my home.
I really think people like WE who have a link to a place and call it home are very lucky, even if they don't live there.