Two years ago today.

**1stimestar** · 09-12-2013, 02:35 PM

My husband died. I really just want to thank all of you for being a good influence in my life. Being out in the wilderness is such a major factor in my sanity and you all help me remember to do that for myself and my children. When the day to day chores of life get overwhelming, and then I come on here, then I think to myself, "What am I doing sitting here on the computer? Get out there where you belong!" Most of my "real life" friends are well on their way to becoming fat old ladies (which I am fighting tooth and nail not to become as well) and are no longer interested in the things I am or getting out there and doing them. So, thank you for your continued support to get out there and do the things that make me happy.

**Ranger F** · 09-12-2013, 02:52 PM

I can't imagine what that's like, I always say god has a way of making sure things work out for us, it's just not always the way we think it should work out. But he has a plan......

**hunter63** · 09-12-2013, 03:01 PM

I recall the trials you had to go thru, and seems like two years has gone fast.......I hope you have put the bad part of the past behind you, ...seems like you have.

Just nice to see your pic's and sprit, and a true story of "doin' it"

We all have our troubles, and it is good to have people in your corner......and we all have your back.

**1stimestar** · 09-12-2013, 03:29 PM

Originally Posted by hunter63

I recall the trials you had to go thru, and seems like two years has gone fast.......I hope you have put the bad part of the past behind you, ...seems like you have.

Just nice to see your pic's and sprit, and a true story of "doin' it"

We all have our troubles, and it is good to have people in your corner......and we all have your back.

Yes, as I posted about in my blog this morning, I really did have to let past hurts and problems go in order to move on through the grieving process. Thanks for having my back. This weekend I am going up to work on Mile 101 (the race checkpoint I work at for the Yukon Quest, our 1000 mile dog race). It will be good to get up there. I'm looking forward to playing my fiddle on the top of Eagle Summit. It looks much different then this in the summer.

Here's what it looks like in the summer: http://cloud9doula.wordpress.com/201...-mile-101-fun/

Mods, if this posting a link to my blog is not allowed, please feel free to remove it. I don't mean to be a naughty girl.

**Solar Geek** · 09-12-2013, 03:42 PM

I came onto the board after your husband died and was so sorry to hear of it. Such a life trial at such a young age (judging by your pictures!) You and your family have been and remain in our prayers.

**crashdive123** · 09-12-2013, 04:01 PM

Glad we were/are able to help somewhat with the healing process. Keep in mind that your adventures and pictures have been an inspiration that have lifted the souls and spirits of many.

**BENESSE** · 09-12-2013, 04:11 PM

You have been a joy to have around and we have all lived vicariously through your adventures, even this hardened New Yorker. I am sorry for your and your children's loss, sorry you had to go through it, it does leave a mark. But you are obviously a fighter, lucky enough to have figured out what makes you happy and going after it. What a great example to your children and everyone else who still might be searching!

**gryffynklm** · 09-12-2013, 08:49 PM

I would like to thank you for taking us along on some of your adventures. Its nice to know that our words of encouragement and support have helped. I always look forward to your adventures and thank you for taking us along. Like B said you are a great example of keep going forward to your kids and those around you.

**Desert Rat!** · 09-12-2013, 09:20 PM

Originally Posted by 1stimestar

My husband died. I really just want to thank all of you for being a good influence in my life. Being out in the wilderness is such a major factor in my sanity and you all help me remember to do that for myself and my children. When the day to day chores of life get overwhelming, and then I come on here, then I think to myself, "What am I doing sitting here on the computer? Get out there where you belong!" Most of my "real life" friends are well on their way to becoming fat old ladies (which I am fighting tooth and nail not to become as well) and are no longer interested in the things I am or getting out there and doing them. So, thank you for your continued support to get out there and do the things that make me happy.

Your doing Great! 1stimestar, just keep after it and have fun , grab the day and make it yours and when you go to bed at night plan on the same thing tomorrow!!

**Ken** · 09-12-2013, 09:28 PM

You're doing everything that your husband would have wanted you to do. Keep it up, and thanks for spending some time here with us.

**WolfVanZandt** · 09-12-2013, 11:00 PM

I'm glad you're doing well. I know so many women who's family was their only interest/reason/purpose in life and when their children moved off and their husband died, they no longer had any reason to live so they didn't. I find that tragic because I know there was so much potential there that never got out. I've got to believe that the loss of a spouse is a terrible thing (I don't expect I'll ever know) but it's also an opportunity to re-evaluate self and to make changes. I know one lady who's husband died, but when she retired, she learned how to fly (a plane, even). She's about 10 years older than I am (I guess), well tanned, healthy as any horse, and I would never have any hope of keeping up with her in anything.

**randyt** · 09-13-2013, 04:56 PM

Wow, I had read of your loss but didn't realize it was so recent. You're doing great, far better than I would probably fare. God Bless

**magentasky** · 09-13-2013, 11:57 PM

I'm so sad to read you lost your husband,and your children their father,two years ago.
Sounds like you are doing a fantastic job,you have my deep respect 1stimestar.....my love and good wishes go to you and your family xx

**Phaedrus** · 09-14-2013, 01:08 AM

My Dad passed away just over two years ago, too. I realize it's not the same losing a parent, and I was fortunate that he and I made our peace and found common ground long ago. I'm glad to see you're on the mend, even if we never entirely get over such losses. The whole remains where that person used to be, and nothing really fills it. Still, like all wounds it gets less acute with time.