Ugh... winter depression is back again.
Last year about this time was a very low moment for my wife and I. We assumed that it was just because it was our first AK winter, plus being newlyweds we argued quite a bit. Going into this winter we decided to not let that happen again. We felt confident that we would be happier this year because of the anticipation of a new baby and everything. Well, it still happened. My wife had a few complications and is now on bed rest for at least a month. So us being able to get out of the house is not an option now. She is miserable and hates sitting around the house all day. I have found myself not wanting to go to work because I want to stay with her and take care of things around the house. My job has become boring and doesn't stimulate my mind at all. So both of us have nothing but time to think, and it's been my experience that that can be devestating. We finally have a plan on what we are going to next year, which is a relief because now we don't feel helpless and unsure what our future holds. But at the same time we are impatient and want our plan to happen now, because there are plenty of unknowns with that. The only joy we seem to have is planning for our baby boy's (Travis) arrival, but even that my wife is so ready for the pregnancy to be done. On top of all that is the mounting damage to our home that we will be moving back to that will all have to be repaired once we get there. I know it could always be worse and I'm sure others have it much worse than we do, but it sucks. We have done outstanding this year, finacially, but have realized that money is NOT the most important thing in life. Happiness is what we want and we believe that will be in Indiana so we are anxious to get there. This year and a half will be the longest time in our lives.
